Here's something I'm totally proud of that I made myself on Photoshop. It's a tribute to my cousin eho passed away almost 2 years ago. Hope you like...
On other thoughts, if you're a lightweight, don't drink two shots of Everclear and three Bud Lights because the minute you mention what you drank to someone else, the only direction it goes it up and out... GROSS!
She kisses everyone goodbye And waves her middle finger high They're never gonna mess with her again The drama queen is seventeen And sleeping with boys for free She's got a reputation of being easy
Everytime they put her down, she makes a fist and the tears roll down. She packs her bags and plans to run away
She's saying goodbye and leaving tonight She's wasted all her lonely tear drops She's saying goodbye and leaving tonight She's used up all her lonely tear drops now
She thinks about herself and cares about nobody else Because the only friends she has all put her down They hate her when she's beautiful and even more when she's a fool They talk behind her back when it's her birthday
Everytime they put her down, she makes a fist and the tears roll down. She packs her bags and plans to run away And everytime she makes a friend, the vicous cycle starts again
She's never, ever, ever looking back
She's saying goodbye and leaving tonight She's wasted all her lonely tear drops She's saying goodbye and leaving tonight She's used up all her lonely tear drops now
She's saying goodbye, she's wasted all her loney tear drops Saying goodbye, she's used up all her lonely tear drops now
Everytime they put her down, she makes a fist and the tears roll down. She packs her bags and plans to run away from here And everytime she makes a friend, the vicous cycle starts again She's never, ever, ever looking back
She's saying goodbye and leaving tonight She's wasted all her lonely tear drops She's saying goodbye and leaving tonight She's used up all her lonely tear drops now
She's wasted all her lonely tear drops now...
On a personal note: Goodbye to the world of online journals, fucked up guys, and Antioch. I'm more motivated to move out this fucking town than I ever have been.
Goodbye to those who enjoyed reading this journal. Thank you for listening to me rant and let it all out. Happy or sad, you viewers have been there through it all. If I end up making a movie about my life in a nutshell, I shall thank all of you good people in it.
Now that I have a majority of my shit straight, I think it's time for me to find someone worthwhile. I mean think about it: I'm going to start going to NCTI in July. Mom says I could move out somewhere near Livermore cause she doesn't want me taking Vasco. I'm moving out the house within a year, more likely in the So. Cal areas cause my parents may be moving to Arizona. I have some great friends who are here for me when I need them. I have my plans on transfering to Berkeley, a UC in the So. Cal, or just falling back on the RN in the ER idea. My life is set! All I need now is a man who won't let me down.
I think I'm ready now. I've been single for a good, what? 4-5 months now. Technically, Andre was the last boyfriend I had. Joe was just a fling and Ryan was just a makeout buddy. Aside from that, I've been getting no action whatsoever. So I think it's time people!
I need a guy older than me. Someone more mature. Someone who would make me feel secure. Someone I know wouldn't treat me wrong or deny what we have for eachother. Someone who won't just fuck and leave. Someone taller than me, and I mean WAY taller than me. Someone smart, FUN, caring, sweet, funny... Someone with a mind! Someone with common sense. Someone who will understand that sex isn't everything in a relationship until things start going downhill (that's when you KNOW something's wrong). Someone who can handle a strong willed person like me. Someone with goals, dreams, aspirations. Someone who could challenge me. Someone who sees me as an equal. Someone who will like me for who I am. Someone who knows how to treat a girl. I don't need the guy to be a total gentleman but I want him to be someone I could take home to my parents and have my brother approve of. Someone who will like me for who I am and not because they think I'm easy (which hopefully, I don't come off as being). I need SOMEONE WORTHWHILE!
I basicially need a guy who can prove to me that not all guys are out to hurt me and tear me down. If you're out there, please show yourself.
